Progress?

Well, I started this competition full force, and have met some of my weekly goals, but not all of them. I have done far better on my menu than I have in nearly a year, but still have had a few issues that I need to address if I want to meet my goal of losing 13 lbs this month. I know that I am capable of doing it, I just need to focus and take care of those little things that are preventing me from reaching my goal.

I'm not one to talk about emotions much, I don't like admitting when I'm angry or sad or frustrated. When I do admit it, especially if its a conversation in person, I tend to fumble over my words and never say what I really want to say. I have some things that I know I should say to my best friends, both of them, that are always in my head and yet never come out of my mouth... I'm not sure why this is so hard for me, but I have such a huge fear that things will change and not for the better, that I'm afraid to speak what is on my mind and what I really should say. I almost feel like this fear is getting in the way of me meeting my other goals in life. Like I let the fear of what would happen if I said how I truly felt dictate my behavior, and it prevents me from really being who I really am. I don't know if any of that makes any sense at all, cuz I'm still processing most of it myself and haven't figured out how to approach it, how to fix it. Hopefully one day soon the pieces will start to fall into place and my social life and school life and work life will fall into place as well. For now, I guess I'll just keep working on what I eat at each meal, and get the exercise and water levels back up where they should be, thats my goal for this week.